i did it again

against all odds...i stood next to you on the fence...i watched you move.  with baited breath and dreams unfulfilled in my heart of us and of you.  i saw the fierce determination...the spring in your step and the intensity in your spirit as you paced up and down the line...and i watched with rapt emotion trying to pick up on some clue that you might know that you were loved...and then i saw you...your fierceness and your eyes for a brief moment...you let the protectful helmet out of your grasp though there were hundreds of sounds surrounding us...i heard the sound of the helmet hitting the ground...the uncertainty the crack in the amour...the crash of the helmet on the ground...the faltering second of your grasp...the slight slump of your shoulders...i wanted to cry out and tell you it is fine...you are loved you are wonderful...but you quickly recovered...and started pacing again...the caged wolf...