OH MY GOD

when is trust is finally shattered. beyond repair. and you know it at that 3 am time in the morning and you know you cant get it around it where do you go. i am at a loss. a huge loss. a hole in my stomach wanting to throw up loss. but at the same time i have direction strong. sadness for the loss but more sure and anger at what i have wasted and compromised and mad that i had wasted so much for so little...